tock: Jul. 28, 2002 (8:07 am)

i'm just afraid to meet new people right now (despite how much is on my horizon) because it feels like i'm just starting a timer for the inevitable end. no one likes me enough to stay.

it's two months later and all i think about is patient love. and all the people who i tried to replace his conversations with. but never felt so strongly about. because they are so far away.

and i think it would be better if they stay that way. so it goes.

(that isn't what i wanted from this)

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