so very: Jan. 24, 2002 (9:08 pm)

after first tech i was crying. over my physics homework. paul. and the fact that i feel like i'm pulling the same stupid shit with boys now that i always have.

and alex rubbed my shoulder and talked. and he let me feel bad for a bit. and then we laughed at had a nice conversation. and if that is what our friendship is then i wouldn't want to change that relationship for anything, though sometimes it's hard with his girlfriend because he seems somehow transformed by her presence.

you know all that was in my friendship with paul was complete honesty. but looking back it seems so very one sided.

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