rose: Apr. 05, 2002 (11:26 pm)

how would the world be if i didn't keep alex's secrets? if i made the world a more honest place? what does he want me to call christine and tell her every morsel of truth he has hidden from her? no, i don't want to do that.

but obviously i mean fucking nothing to him 'cause he told (and he said he wouldn't unless it was murder) meryl. in these days of despair that i told him about this morning. he still told.

maybe i should explain it more. mike asks me 'still stalking him?' and i say 'no, and she doesn't like him anymore' and he says 'i believe that...but i don't believe that you don't'. so i tell meryl that they believe she doesn't like bobby, but they believe that i do. and she asks alex why, and he fucking tells her.

i can't count on anyone, can i?

is that why he was so evasive. so incredibly evasive. he didn' even tell me.

i would tell.

i had my first dream about taste last night.

cigarettes laced with roses.

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