over: Feb. 14, 2002 (6:53 pm)

and oh fuck, i have two guys in common with her. she who has no confidence, and purely follows people around, wears low cut top ever day and long skirt slit up the middle. how could the same guys possibly like us? there's mike, who thinks she's a mistake now and is sorry he used her. and is really really unattracted to her. and then there's that other one, that i lead on and nothing actualy happened with. he seemed to be ignoring me for a while. not for the last two days. because he has her. and it's so fucking hard to ignore when there's someone else. he won.

and i'm sick sick sick of this. i hate my innane crushes. and as i say that i think 'ok, i'll just stick to this one' but that's equally fucking stupid. stupid. stupid.

i want to throw this whole thing over.

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