need: Apr. 20, 2002 (11:47 pm)
so i'm not even being as honest here as i'd like to be.
i feel so lonely, not even just lonely but activly disliked. and when i mopely tell that to alex he says i have him. but competitive me wants to be the best. and even with christine gone i still am not. it's a reall awful way to think.
it seems i just hate everyone but him. is it still love by default? and should i even say it.
because i don't think i even need to.
there's no way to lie with actions i've found.
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