guess: Mar. 12, 2002 (6:45 pm)

confessionals are so often marred by repression, which i can't really do. there are moments where i want alex to be solely mine so fucking badly, but they are moments. but sometimes we talk and he presses against me, and i pretend that him and christine have problems because i really am a threat. i can't really comprehend that i'm wrong, but i doubt that's what it really is.

but at the same time, more frequently in fact, i really like my fortune-cookie-boy. it's a bit innane but a bit safer. and i don't know what i like. i'm just afraid it's stupid. but then i guess i'm stupid.

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