forth: Aug. 13, 2002 (9:53 pm)

i'd like to say that i'm out of it because i'm jetlag...but i'm just hungover

i'm sort of jealous of people who can make themselves sick because i am so weak. my friends tell me stories of hungover reguritation and i am stunned. i've been sick for three weeks and the worst part of it is the fear of not having control of my body.

the summer feels wrecked because i'm afraid to even go outside. it's too hot.

even though i'm sick i feel more content. moving closer to the front of the crowd by myself. excellent.

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