finger: Jul. 24, 2002 (9:53 pm)

i should not be pointing my fingers here. this is not the problem. this helps, this is doing something. i try to say that this is what keeps me from doing anything, that paul gives me a 4.0 but it's me. it's me. and i don't know what to do right now. so i'm hopelessly looking for something else.

i remember the first time i saw the boy i met monday night; during the trans am set, looking at his friend. and i wonder if he remembers and can see how incredibly fickle and pathetic i am. how no one really means anything to me.

yet.

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