what good it does: 01-01-02 (8:08 am)

i am a jealous ex girlfriend. it made me happy to know that sara, paul's ex-girlfriend, is just a minor character in the first act of his life. i am a supporting role, female lead is platonic relationsip. (yes we discussed our relationship in terms of high fidelity). i found my self saying ha like the basket case in the breakfast club when he said he didn't get anywhere on his date with katie. deep inside i was really just relieved. this day two years ago i was deaming of him...

i saw a boy that i worked with this summer (he's friends with the sxe-techie from way back in december who is just another innane crush) and he recognized me and smiled. it made me happy to be known. also because he's straightedge and it makes me feel nice to see people who grow up sxe and are now legal but they're still the same way and they appear to be doing fine. i don't know what i'll do for fun when i'm older, but in all honesty i don't realy know what i do for fun now.

well happy new year. just another day like i said before. who cares. resolutions are empty promises when they are made just to make one.

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