center: Jan. 12, 2002 (10:29 am)

i'm afraid that i'm being melodramatic. that i'm overbearing + that i'm not a pleasure at all--that i'm just obnoxious.

i want to be a pleasure to talk to. to seem intellegent. to not just ramble on and on about failed inter-personal relationships. to not just be whiny and sad and pitying my self. not to say that thinking about that can't be part of me. just it's overwhelming. there must be something else. (mix tapes, books, politics, philosophy, plays and shows...)

is there a balance? a way to have both.

i wish i were a better listener.

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