better: Jul. 15, 2002 (8:05 am)

where are you when i think about you at night? cars change everything and i'm sure you're not a home. stationary. i wonder if you just watch my number show up and just sit there. avoiding me.

i can't jut accept that everything is different now. that everything you said was a lie.

and it's so pathetic because i ought to have better things to think about. but i don't.

i will smile, i swear.

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