alter: Jun. 26, 2002 (8:36 am)

i hid my anger (so now you want to hang out with me?) and talked to her for an hour. about nothing. she said she wrote alex a letter after she dropped him off. and she commented on his reaction to switching yearbooks with the girl. 'yeah it was her idea.' meanwhile, i was in the car with that girl who was refusing to read it until she was safe in her room. and i reaize--alex is hurting more people than me. i'm just the only one who's brought it up.

and lately i've been trying to be happier. not just for him. but partially. and maybe i'm not the one who needs such a drastic change.

meanwhile, my writing has been shitty and i don't know what i'm doing anymore.

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