welcome: Aug. 19, 2002 (11:52 am)

if i don't feel better very very soon...i still can't do anything about it. and i've just realized i haven't done anything in four weeks. it's nearing five. and i just can't stop feeling nauseous.

i've just thought and thought. and haven't really come up with anything new. but i'm afraid of everything. getting to far away from home. vomitting. failing everything.

and people. i am so scared of people.

i want to talk to someone who wants to talk to me.

it feels like september again. he said it was my fault then too. that i asked people to walk all over me.

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