tough: May. 28, 2002 (7:12 pm)

wishing for a postcard from paul who's spending a few days, weeks, months vacationing in a world where i simply do not exist. one fucking phone call, please, just to tell me the truth--for now, not forever; i know.

explaining guilt about mike [i always love his friends more and more than him] alex said, 'it's tough being a friend.' and it is, too tough.

but more feels like suicide right now.

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