trouble: Mar. 20, 2002 (6:18 pm)

he said, "so now you're a cripple?"

and i wondered what he meant.if he had picked up on my lies, my stories, my exagerations. or saw that as a parallel to my loneliness--a sort of social cripple.

or maybe he was was just joking, as i was sitting in a wheel chair in laura's office. i just couldn't find a chair.

i'm too used to unattainable people, it's so normal for me to live in my head.

and i'm having trouble changing it

and he said "it's ok...i still like you"

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