ready made: 12-11-01 (9:43 pm)

i tend to forget soul mate aren't ready made but instead take time. and when i forget that i get frustrated and think paul is more special than he is. in actuality he's only special becase i've taken the time to know him and make him special. he's everything i want...yet something in our history makes it absolutely impossible...

my friend alex is dating this girl christine who doesn't think he should talk to me as much. i can't stand when girls do that. not to sound so egocentric but it's especially hurtful for me because alex is one of my few really good friends at school (or in the world) and it just seems so selfish. and i'm pretty sure she knows i was depressed and am just coming out of it so it just seems like a really mean thing to do.

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