pray: Jul. 10, 2002 (9:28 am)

i don't want to let him be my voice of the stereotypical allienated, heart-broken, depressive teenager. he isn't trite, and i don't want to be either. and i realize now that it's not normalcy i fear. because no one ever believes they are normal anyway. it's not doing anything impressive. ever. to just sit here and let other people's voices describe me (and you and you and you). i want converations not prayers. i want to see wonder and not emulate because i know what i'm doing.

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