opportunity: Aug. 03, 2002 (9:40 am)

i hate my house right now. it's easier when i lie; because then they don't dissaprove and forbid.

i hate my friend right now. because i told her about my dream and she said that i was right and that she shouldn't persue him and leave me. but she's doing something with him today but she says she'll see my in four weeks. (and we'll ignore everything because i'll never be given a chance to speak)

and maybe now i can actually sit through this. if something happened. looking at the note he wrote to my mom on a paper towel and imagine that i've found a new friend.

because i really hope i have.

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