off twelve or six: May. 15, 2002 (5:43 pm)
i was ten again (that was over half a decade ago, now). he asked if it was new. that ever extending river. and i turned around and chewed my pen. started laughing. couldn't speak besides quickly saying yes. tell me. i can't. moves close, you can. no. write it down. not here, later.
later. you know i've taken three assignments today and i think i've fucked up the last part of every single one. i don't know why i wrote about czechloslovia in 68 instead of Hungry in 56. over confidence i suppose, i should've checked. been more careful.
accident
alone, again with the tape playing
songs so different from my life
really lived, really know, really
men in omaha who I am sure
if I just knew some like them...
Lately, I mean always, it's moments
the overlap of his warm thigh onto mine
the sound of his breath and sighs
he doesn't love me though, really
I act too good for him and I act cruel
dinosaur
an epiphany, really
you declared, � I know
why we go in cycles.'
�oh, yeah?'
�We have no relationship and
we're just avoiding mentioning it'
circling around dupont
you took off your father's
leather glove, and held my hand
flesh against flesh
you kissed me good bye at the bus stop
and I finally understood this line
I, the dinosaur, had sung so many nights
�we create images to make out lives seem pretty'
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