incentive: Jul. 09, 2002 (8:46 am)

'cause kisses aren't contracts and these days either are words

disgusted by do nothings (but on the other hand what do i do?) who complain and appologize and don't do anything about it. this is what makes words worthless.

our little talks are worthless because they just rehash what we already know. we don't think of what we can do. just idealize what the other one could do. and alex, i don't know what i could do. because you're asking me to ignore every way that you've changed. i can't do that unless i leave. i can't appreciate what you're doing when you admit it's a relief not to have to think.

perhaps absense causes change because there is no incentive if i just hang around and wait. but i can't imagine that you'd really care.

in which case i'd just be leaving.

(i can't just put myself on a pedastol like this. i know i'm not so wonderful. but i don't think it's because of dishonesty.)

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