i don't believe that i'm getting any better...: 11-28-01 (7:31 pm)

i think i'm less depressed...but i'm going through this really awful period of feeling quite numb and going through meaninless actions because i know i should not because i have a particular interest. it's wrecking my creativity.

there's a misfits show tonight. i am certainly not that punk rock. i guess i'm a weepy-emo-child, 'cause i can't stand pits. last year i wanted to be labled punk so very badly. i'd inhale toxic fumes and do anything that those who already had that label were doing. and why? to not conform of corse, silly! yeah, heavy irony there just incase you didn't catch it...i just want to be an individual, but it's pretty fucking hard when you yourself are forgetting how you feel sometimes...sigh, i hope this passes over soon because i just don't know what to do anymore.

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