expand: Aug. 16, 2002 (7:48 pm)

i can't claim that i'll never love anyone as i loved you. because non-theoretically something seemed off (though you are more comforting than anyone. anyone.) but yeah; i'm talking to othe people. and you wouldn't stop me. even if you were here. (i don't think). and i don't have trouble trusting--i'm not jaded with people; it's just no one else has ever viewed me as an end. no one else has ever gone past a moment into every moment.

but it's easy to say that and harder to mean.

yeah, i know, i did it too.

i didn't expect you to call back but everytime the phone rang i hoped it would be you.

i think of you and realize: you'd never understand veganism. you'd never understand riot grrl. you'd never understand the politically left. but you understand people.

i can't only talk to you but it's just as difficult to be silenced by you. just: couldn't we go beyond something so stupid. or at least go beyond not talking at all?

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