dark: Feb. 09, 2002 (5:26 pm)

i can't tell this morning from this afternoon from yesterday. i don't know how it got to be five thirty.

how i got to be so far behind. yet i can't motivate myself to pick up my western civ book to read about the emergence of liberalism.

that's when i know things are bad. also, when i'm in a book just staring at kaufman's book on existentialism and decide not to get it because i just don't feel like reading. and i don't really feel like anything.

i had a migraine yesterday and the day before but i didn't really pay attention to it. every time i looked up at the light i was in pain. so i tried to look down. last night i tried to read david ives by flashlight but i just couldn't stand the pain. so i slept. and slept and slept. for twelve hours. i'm not sure if i've ever done that.

there's not much else you can do in the dark.

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