bed: Aug. 14, 2002 (8:24 pm)

i asked alex what became of our friendship a few days ago. the question is still echoing around denyed and unanswered.

we never simply existed together except for a few moments here and there sitting on the floor of our school laughing or talking.

and it's so obnoxious to have a desire to act and to exist but to be stricken with sickness. for three weeks. or a year. or whatever.

< - > - all - p - n - d