ashamed: Jun. 21, 2002 (7:59 am)

last year, i felt like a solitary body in harmony with the rest of the crowd. fine on my own. basking in the energy of the band. finding other kids who were so compartmentalized. there for the music. there for the joy those shows are.

and yeah, i'm ashamed of myself. in this way i'm afraid of changed. i feel like a typical high school kid. am i?

next time could be different. next time i will be all the things i loved. monday, i will be fine. i will sit and read before hand. go up to the front and become a solitary body in harmony with the rest. (i will ignore stupid passions because i don't want to compromise)

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