awkward noise: Jun. 25, 2003 (10:16 am)

i've had an opening sentence for this entry since caitlin and me first started planning my birthday party. it was about a table filled with people where i had hated and loved each one. but they were my friends; it was supposed to be the simple point about the imperfection of human beings. that's not really what i'm thinking now.

i'm thinking about how caitlin's a good friend. how she cried while chopping onions and how she made me a three layer cake with jam and icing between each layer. i'm thinking about how i'm happy that i didn't have to blow out the candles or thank people for gifts i didn't want or skip around the room alone. i'm thinking about driving david around to rent a video and talking about what i would do if i visited him in bloomington and he was a cokehead. i'm thinking about warm blankets and warm touches. i'm thinking about adriane and how in a few years i'll probably say "i once knew this cool girl adriane."

it's finally sunny and i don't even mind that it's hot. tonight i'll be home early so i'll be able to go to bed early. and i have 1 1/2 hours of public transportation ahead of me finally enough energy to read winesburg, ohio. there are things that are bothering but they're kind of fading out of my perception and probably not even so bad.

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