start?: Jan. 01, 2003 (1:52 pm)

i woke up at what was the dead middle of the night for me and realized that none of my friends had even gone to bed yet. i'm feeling like i did in november: completely out of place around them with their chemicals and parties.

i hate talking to people about other people. and i hate when we is not assumed to mean you and i but instead my real friends and i. so this should pass. soon. i hope.

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