most: Feb. 03, 2002 (11:12 am)

i know that he must of thought of me for a brief moment when he bought me that small trinket. i know he must of looked back over his recent path and realized he had been an asshole, and wanted to make amends. or something. all i know is he thought of me.

(what bothers me is i can't remember him being cruel. i wonder how many people have treated me like he has which i didn't even realize. just assumed it was normal. allowed myself to take the blame.)

the point is not to discuss matt though. he's not my friend, we just happen to both do theater and he thought he was mean.

the point is that's it's weird to think of someone thinking about me. it's just odd to consider.

i suppose most people think it's normal.

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