accomplished: Mar. 20, 2006 (2:13 pm)

i slept better and more easily than i thought i would and woke up and read paglia's analysis of the ghost's speach in hamlet over cornflakes and soymilk and roasted a red pepper while proofreading leon's article about the silver jews and bought bagels from a real bakery and bananas and black grapes from the big grocery store near my t stop while i let the red pepper marinate in olive oil and garlic which i ate on one of the bagels with fake cream cheese when i got back from running errands (but forgot to bring my first paycheck from my new job at the bookstore to deposit in an atm) and finished reading mrs. dalloway but still had that funny feeling that's maybe just wanting a cigarette for the first time in two months or maybe longer that i've been feeling since i got off the phone with ian last night after telling him lies about why i don't want to see him because you can tell someone that you aren't ready for a new relationship but you can't just tell someone that you can't imagine yourself ever being excited and unhesitantly in love with them.

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