procrastinating: May. 24, 2003 (5:06 pm)

so i've been quiet. or maybe just kind of still lately. the world doesn't look beautiful or even worthwhile. it's just kind of there right now and so am i. that sounds sad, but i am. i've been taking these horrible glances at what next year will still have. and it's not much and it's nothing i'm very enthusiatic about besides my classes. my classes are exciting. summer's soon; i hope i can meet nice people again and i'll get one year with them too. maybe we'll all come home one day.

there's a lavender house in cleveland park with too much in it. i've been there. there's a dragon and a boy with a lot of books. he once looked at me and said "this feels right" but i still felt like i was waiting. i wonder what's left between us past the using and the waiting.

i do quite a lot of waiting. it makes me think that something better's going to happen and hey look sometime it's true.

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